Reason with me

Hmm...Blogging has become more tough than i thought...cuz i m running out of ideas to write about... most of it center about love... and views change about it everyday

Well since few months... i have become Vela...ultimate cool for some... cool beyong stupidity for some others... cuz i hv stopped worrying abt shit...Shit like studies...and other stuff.... I had lost my enthusiasm for all this...

But few the reason for it.... Maybe i dont even know it... nd maybe by writing this i might understand more clearly...

Everything we do in life ..It has a purpose... but we dont realise it... small or big it might be...but there is some reason for it...even we eat for our living...but some might say we do many things just for no reason ...but for our satisfactionI guess that is the main reason of every action we take in life...

And what is Depression? when satisfaction doesnt matter ..In that case...evry action is boring stupid nd widout result...

And the same way , studies earlier had a purpose... To be a good student... den to prove a point to my parents... nd den to get into IIT..so tht i hv a good life... But now that i am here...and now that i have experienced the IIT teachers nd subjects... the reason..even the reason of satisfaction is gone...I have to study...to pass...and i can pass just by studyin a lil on my own at the end... and thus i have stopped attending classes...

I am continiously in actions, that give me satisfaction here... But alas! i havent found many..in fact i m just sure of one action... ADVENTUREi feel that this is the main time i can enjoy... that i can live life... after i get a job... WTF life wud i have... but the only thing that has prevented in making this activity my passion ...is that i am alone...in this..

There aint any1 who shares d passion of living ... having adventure..travelling...enjoying the b'ful nature... everyone is busy chasing his own goals nd targets... nd many are bogged down just by the surroundings and family... But now that i have decided to pursue my passion...my destiny myself...to be self-dependent... i feel free in mind and soul... even though i fear walking alone... but better fear and walk ...than sit forever...

Love was a passion too... but continious disappointment has led to its dying down.. Sometimes i feel whether i have lost d capacity to love.. wdr my hr8 had become a rock [;)]... but well another sentence i have had a strong belief in since my Breaking free is

" RUN YOUR OWN RACE , DONT BE PART OF D WORLD'S RACE "