Friends??

I have a habit of imagining things way into future ...
like thinking of my first job when i have just entered IIT...
the same way i also think about alternative events...
And one such event is What would life be without no friends...

For that we need to understand what a friend is...
But how to understand that when you dont even have a friend... Tough one...
Lets just assume a friend is person...whom you can remember without a hint of formality or guilty-ness ...

Now there have been times when i have had no friends...
there have been some people i can call... but really when i close my eyes and ask myself what have i acheived all this years ..the 18 years of my life...
What can i say is my achievement?
Studies...well maybe...but i never loved them...but i did it to have a sense of usefulness among my VIRTUAL friends...
But have i managed to make friends....that might last a lifetime??
Well whenever i meet new people...and i become good friend with them...i feel yes here is a person i can call my friend all my life... but sooner or later...when ways part...people grow up...taking time out for friends becomes tough... and then we become just mere acquaintances .... but friends...nah!!!

There came a time once...
when i made a list of all the people i was in touch with...my friends...
and was particularly upset about a recent incident...
and thought of whom i felt like taling to... Slowly i crossed off the names... and was left with 1-2 people...
and among them, when i called up...not one picked up the call at that time...

It might be that i wasnt able to be their friends... yeah it might be!!!
But isnt it possible , that their being busy...their growing up... their bf/gf became more important...
Isnt it possible, that i tried calling up... but if they didnt pick up... they could at least call up some other time.... isnt it needed that both side try to keep in touch , when friends are far away...
Maybe not...or Maybe yes!!!

I wont answer that...

But to quote one of the such virtual friends...
"Yaar i am just too busy with my classes and colleges that i cant be in touch with any1...and waise bhi we chat online sometimes...so what's the point of calling...kya baat karenge!!...."